Thursday, 1 July 2010

My weddings in my parallel universes...

I’ve always been an over-thinker.
Everything I enjoy gets thought about and thought about until it becomes a bit of a chore. So when I discover something new I research it to death and then it loses all its appeal.
This is what happened with my scrapbooking. I read so many blogs and searched through so many galleries that I lost confidence in what I was doing myself and it just didn’t compare to other people’s work.
Now I’m afraid it is starting with the wedding. I’ve always found it difficult to make decisions (this is where the researching comes in again) and the wedding ones have been the hardest. I’m trying to get the best suppliers I can get and then I’m having to compromise to fit the budget. Then I have regrets about settling. Then I reassure myself that when it is all over I’ll be glad I didn’t spend £2000 on a wedding DVD and then I panic that it would have been the best DVD ever.
I sort of wish I could start from scratch with my bookings.
I’m seeing all my weddings in my parallel universes and they don’t look like the one I’ve booked.
Will someone please give me a shake?

I am having sensory overload from all the wedding blogs at the moment and yet I can’t stop myself looking. I’m afraid I’m going to want to give up planning this wedding and yet I can’t stop myself looking.

1 comment:

Sian said...

I know what you mean. I think it's a perfectionist thing really, you want to do it right first time or not do it at all? It'll all turn out perfectly fine in the end! (And I wish you would do some more scrapbooking, you were very good..)